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Posted by Scaryman8 - April 27th, 2011
Last few days have been shitty, going back to a dark place, I feel like I did when I was in my early teens >_< I mean I know Suicide isn't the answer, but for where i'm at right now its a good souding option "and no i'm not saying i'm gonna kill myself" just sounds like a really good idea....
Why!?!?!?!?
I just dont see much of a point in living anymore, My friends dont talk to me much anymore, my family hates me "besides my mum and rabb", and I lost my job, I have horrible social skills, I'm not very smart "at least from my side of the fence", and my health both mentally and physically are deteriorating, the will to live just isnt there for me anymore....
Well just because of that doesn't mean you have to kill yourself.
I don't even have a job and A LOT of people hate me but you can always make new friends and get a new job.
And my mind has been going for as long as I remember but I don't care.
And I don't feel the smartest either.
I see your point, but all ive ever wanted to do is be average, im not anything near it, i just kinda wish i could "blend in" im not saying i wanna be a conformist, just being somewhat normal, and about the friends thing, im horrible at meeting new people, and everyone i do have something in common with doesnt live in the same city, basically my depression originally stems from being alone, not having a shoulder to lean on "so to speak" but ill probably just get shitfaced later and forget about everything anyway....
I never wanna be normal
I've already accepted I'll never be normal
Me too but I suck it up and talk to someone I've never talked to before
Well, I think your brand of not being normal is just fine, but mine is just kinda weird :P anyway when it comes to sucking it up and talking to someone, i can do that its just that my body language sends a different message than my words do...
Oh.
Try no body language that might help.
It would help, but i usually get nervous with people i like, i touch my face alot, fidget and have trouble keeping eye contact, but ive been working on it, hasnt done much tho...
Oh.
I hate eye contact.
I dont mind it but its hard for me to keep it going
i'm not allowing you to do that, you have me to talk to whenever you are truly bummed out...
Do what? kill myself? I never wanna try that again, last time i just ended up with a bloody wrist and a trip to the psyc ward where i also had to get my stomach pumped, and got striped naked and thrown into a cell for roughly 72 hours, so i'll pass on that, it just came into my mind for abit, but i will talk to u when im truly
bummed, thanks for the mood boost ^_^
EDIT: Sorry about the previous edit,I read you're username wrong :P
Viper
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO don't do it!
Scaryman8
I'm not going to :( I just really really want to...