`Well, Lately I've been wishing I was totally gay, would make things in my life MUCH less complicated, being attracted to a woman who claims me to be the man of her dreams, is hard, its hard to think that any self respecting woman would be attracted to me, in any way, but she loves me in every way, and its freakin me right the fuck out for reasons unknown to myself. I mean, I have a horrible body, a kinda low IQ, a shitty sense of humor, tinnitus,no confidence, and obviously low self esteem, I just don't know why she sees what I can't see. I mean don't get me wrong I do love her, and I do find mostly everything about her to be exactly what I want. But the reason I'm not liking the situation is because I'm afraid of being hurt again. Its hard for me too tell if I'm just insecure or being realistic...
Oh and my birthdays tomorrow, hopefully this year I'll be doing more than kicking rocks.....
Viper
happy early birthday dude :)
and i hope you and her are happy together
Scaryman8
Thanks Viper, as always i appreciate it, and i hope so too, i just don't want my insecurities to fuck this up....